It goes both ways, she pisses me off, I walk out, I piss her off she walks out, she is being uber sensitive now, still does not let me see her phone even though I have ikeymonitor everywhere(i left it open by accident the other day), but now things are weird, I have this feeling she dumped him, or they are being friends right now, saturday she came back and told me she wanted me to go a bad ass club she just came from, like maybe in the near future or something, but she wanted to move by herself to a new place and wanted me to pay for it, but she wants me to stay with the kids, my dumbass agreed and she went apartment hunting, friday she called me to tell me she found the perfect place, but she kept talking like we were moving as a family then I played her game and told her I would stay here while she moved down there and then she sounded a bit sad.
Damn friends, everyone is pitching in their two cents and telling her to leave me, but now, they are telling her to stay married. I just learned that all her sisters have been cheated on while married and they are still together, colombians are weird. Trust on both ends is gone, I tried to seek her out but she doesn't want to. I am not playing those games that she will seek me out when she is ready with me at all, the worst part is that she has told me before that the day she stops seeking me out in bed is the day she has someone else, and that is my worst fear.
Now I had some card read readers involved, and depending on who you talk to, they told me she is seeing someone but they haven't slept together, I have been told twice about this, the last card reader told me in two weeks her and I are going to be happy(one week down and still nothing) and that her and I are moving by june, then she mentioned I was going to travel, which is something I am planning at the moment but don't see me making a trip due to work vacation approval.
I just got Iron Patriot in and I don't think she has a clue that I got Zod, Mk.XLII inbound, the batman armory with all figures, and the captain america figs next year, and she was surprised to see IP, telling me, oh you got him? that's cute. what a *#!#*!#.... In the mean time, I am spending time with my kids more and making her feel bad because they both say dada more than mama now and she is feeling it... Sorry guys if I bore ya'll to death but it's like me venting out right now, I woke up at 2:00 in the am and could not get back to sleep, I went to get a drink and she locked the door, I tried to get back into bed and tried to hug her but she told me no...
The thing that kills me is that I saw some of the messages she sent him, about how she loves him, and can't wait to see him again, while I kind of got the vibe that the guy she is with is a player, just by the replies he sent her, like "oh I know you are married and I can toss you away when I get tired" but I won't touch her until she gets some exams done, no way I am falling for that std's bs, I really don't know what she does nowadays to keep busy at night, but this whole walking out at night deal and showing up late is getting old quick... I am afraid that if I put a stop to her actions she will back away from this, when she is cornered she breaks and just wants to quit all together... this is her now though, before I could literally swear to anyone that she was a good wife, she always stayed home and never did anything, but oh well, I guess I must suffer for this, everything is my fault, and I know nothing will ever be the same, she tells me to find a girlfriend since we have an open relationship, but I really don't want to, she could be using that note as a trap for me to give her reason to leave and be done or maybe our marriage has evolved into a chapter that I wanted back then but now I am terrified.
We get along good still, like we are good friends, but the love aspect is not there. I don't know what to do now, I feel like the ghost of a complete stranger right now.
